Tuesday

There's this place I want to be in five months,
it's simply magical.
It's full of smiles and sunrises and sunsets and glow sticks and dancing in the moonlight.
It's wonderful when it's windy and even better when it's not.
The grass is always green and when it rains there's puddles to go splashing in.
Or mudsliding, if one is so inclined.
It warms my heart and brings my thoughts to a halt every time.


It's the one place I've ever felt truly at home,
even if it's full of strangers and completely foreign to me.



But it's going to take a miracle to get me there.



And I know the One who fights for me is more than capable of creating that miracle,
but truth be told, more often than not, the one who is fighting against me wins the battle for my trust.


I'm bored of believing his lies.

I'm bored of believing that my situation is hopeless, that I'll never be anyone who is worth anything.
I'm bored of believing that we will not make it, of always expecting the worst instead of the best.
I'm bored of believing that I am unloved and unwanted and everything else he has settled in my heart.


you step into my starless night and shine like the sun