Sunday [The Difference]

There's a few things you should know:

it's been days..
it feels like months.

and i?

i am not the same anymore.

i love friends.

New friends. Old friends.

i love long sun-days
[sunny days]
by the beach
adventures and beauty
people

and jesus.

oh my,
how i love jesus.

i love change.
i love that its been brewing for months
[like a storm out at sea]
but has sprung so suddenly.

and i?

i.
am.
not.
the same.

the stuff of earth competes for the allegiance, i owe only to the giver of all good things..

Saturday [The List]

1. I was born in Poland and lived in Greece for three years before moving to Australia at the ripe old age of four.
As a result of this early aged migration, I have never felt truly "at home" anywhere.
But I love traveling and want to do so much more.

2. I love reading.
Big books, small books, long books, short books, picture books, story books.
When I was younger and had to stay home because I was sick, my mum would go to the library and get me a huge stack of books.

I'd usually have them finished by the end of the day.

3. As a result of my avid reading, I have an intense relationship with words.
My favourite word hands down is soliloquy.
People always assume I don't swear because I think its rude.
I don't swear because I think there are so many other more creative words that could be used in place of crassness.

4. I have curves that make Kate Winslet look like a stick, and it's something that I'm learning to be okay with.
I'll never be a size zero, but I was created in God's image, and I'm learning to love myself the way He does.

5. If it wasn't for Jesus, I would have easily slipped into an eating disorder at some stage or another.
He has saved me from myself so many times.

6. There are many things in my life that I would do again differently.
But, there isn't anything that I regret.
Every "mistake" is a lesson to learn, and I am am constantly grateful for learning.

7. Being creative is my life.
I draw, I paint, I sew, I write, I make, I play, I listen, I photograph.
I would be entirely miserable without any of these things.

8. I work with kids.
It's my life, not just a job.
It also means I get to play with playdough and chase bubbles and read picture books and build sandcastles and play dress ups and wrestle on the floor most days.
It's tough some times, but I can't see myself doing anything else right now.

9. I want to learn Spanish and move to South America to teach English.
If everything goes to plan, that will happen next year.

10. I love America.
I've been there twice, and it honestly amazes me.
I think God has a plan to have me in the states permanently one day.
I can't see how that will happen, but I know His plan will come to pass.

I can't wait.

11. I love birds.
They are hands down one of my favourite animals.
Close second are giraffes and frogs.

12. Polaroids are my favourite.
I like my photo's imperfect and unpredictable and instant.
I love light leaks and lens flares and blurred lights and odd focus.
There's something delightful about capturing a moment raw and honest.

13. One of my favourite books is "The Man Who Ate the 747" by Ben Sherwood.
I love it so much that I have it written on the walls of my room.
I wake up every day and go to sleep every night surrounded by a love story.

14. My extended family lives oceans away.
I see them once every few years if I'm lucky.
I often wish they lived closer.

15. I love baking and cooking.
Give me a few spare hours and some pretty music and soon the house will be filled with warm sugary smells.
When it comes to cooking though, I'm entirely experimental.
And messy.
Recipe's are for wimps and it usually takes me longer to clean up afterward than to actually make the meal.
Cooking usually involves dancing to the likes of Derek James or The Grates.

16. I think I should have been a gypsy.
The idea of living cheap and traveling often and playing music around bonfires at night enthralls me.

17. Some of my best friends in the entire world live in Canada.
I love them beyond measure, and know that we will one day be reunited to change the world together.

18. I am one of the clumsiest people I know.
It doesn't help that I bruise easily,
but I pretty much always have a bruise or two and never seem to know where they came from.
Having said that thought, I've never been to hospital or broken any bones.

19. Love is the answer.
It's that simple.
But I wish I could live it out more often.

20. I don't watch t.v much.
I'd much prefer to be reading or playing guitar, or making something.
But when I do its usually Scrubs or House or Pushing Daisies.

21. Sometimes I am just far too emotionally invested in other people.
To the point where I will cry while watching someone cry on t.v.
It's ridiculous, but makes me laugh at myself every time.

22. I am a bit crazy.
It's true.
I sing off key and I dance in shopping malls and I wear tutu's to the grocery store.
I love rain boots and twirly dresses and laughing and puddle jumping.
I once went for weeks at a time without talking to anyone unless it was necessary.
So what?

23. I sometimes go on random drives into the city late at night with the window open and the music loud.
I think Sydney is entirely beautiful at night, and when I can't sleep, it's the best place to be.

24. I'm an only child.
When I was younger, instead of imaginary friends, I had imaginary brothers and sister.
Eight of them.
And we all had magic powers like Matilda.

25. Above all else, I love Jesus.
I'm terrible at showing Him that sometimes, and if He was anyone else He would have broken up with me a long time ago
But He keeps pursuing me no matter how far I wander.
Loving Him is like being involved in an elaborate dance.

And I love dancing.




it's time, come meet me on the sunny road...

Friday [The Moment of Truth]

no more excuses...


the time has come to stand for all we believe in...

Thursday [The Late Night Drive...]

early morning empty streets and twinkle
shimmer street lights

every day a chance for memories
[with you, without you


who are you?]

maybe i dreamt you once
a stranger on the sidewalk
fleeting glances
second chances
a song
a sound
a moment

grainy snow storm snap shot
daylight
sunset
start again

[who are you?
maybe i saw you across a room
stood next to you and brushed your arm
an accident
subconsciously intentional...


who am i?]

hope for breakfast
a dash of joy
a sprinkling of grace

[you don't know me.

eyesclosedhalfsmile

imagine all the people that i could be..]

and it's okay.

the sun shines
the moon rises
rain falls

you
build a life
without
me

and i'm fine.

i'm okay.

and i will find you there, and i will mend your heart...