Tuesday, June 29, 2010

Thursday [The Quiet Question...]


sigh.

sometimes i wonder if i'm using up all my options.
if, somehow, for all the times i've said "no"
the universe gives me one less chance to meet the one i'd say "yes" to.

is that fair though?
i swear its not intentional.
and i don't mean to be fussy.

but i just don't want to settle for anything... not.


that's okay, right?






you be my arthur miller and i will be marilyn monroe..

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Wednesday [The Key...]


oh, hey.
i think i like you.

late night cold walks through the city and cat stevens on repeat.
happiness.
strangers to smile at
and thoughts of the future.
a future.
any future.

i would be happy to stay the way we are for ever,
just you, in my life, is enough.





hello happiness.
please stick around.



there are two things i will carry in my pocket at the end, oh my darling you are one of them...

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Tuesday [The Truth...]

this might just be the story of my life:

On Saturday, we went to a party with some of Vinny's school friends at a house across town. It was a grown up party, the kind where people stand around in a well lit living room in little clumps and talk. Vinny was good at that kind of stuff. I tried my best. People said, "New Mexico? Really? Wow." and i gave a kind of half smile. They asked, "How did you end up there?" and I shrugged. On the way home it was freezing and we walked really close to each other, because we liked to do that.

"Sometimes I just don't know how to connect with people," I told him. "I'm supposed to ask these questions about where they live and what they do, but I just don't care. The things that interest me about people- I'm not allowed to ask those questions when I've just met them. They want you to wait so long to say anything, and in the meantime it's all movie plots and stories with punchlines."

"That's how some people connect, though. You just don't do it like other people. You're always so fucking intense."

-Bucket Siler
www.bucketsiler.com



Sometimes I just don't know how to connect with people...
What matters most is not your job or your house or your things.
I want to know your story.
What hurts you, what moves you, what you love and what you can't live without.




there's deep enough wells for our tears..

Monday [The Perfect Winter Sunrise...]


sometimes things just work.
like white tea and rose in giant cups.
like beer and pubs and pool games with strangers.
late night swing sets and bubble o' bills.
or silly hats and zombie dances.
early morning airport runs and perfect winter sunrises.
white clouds, pale blue sky for miles.
occasional tears interspersed with smiles.

sometimes sadness is necessary in order to remember the moments we are happy.
i have had my fair share of happiness this month.
it was entirely thanks to friends.
wonderful people to share life with.
to laugh with, to dance with, to cry with, 
to breathe with, to sit in silence and marvel at majesty with..

i used to believe i didn't need people.
really, being alone has been my life for so long.
but more and more i realise the value of lives.
of influence.
of the way the beat of another's heart can affect your own.
of how much shared smiles and laughter and sadness and tears are so much more important, 
so much more valuable than all things in this world.

i don't know what i'd do without you.





there is a house built out of stone, wooden floors, walls and window sills, tables and chairs worn by all of the dust.
this is a place where i don't feel alone
this is a place where i feel at home.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Saturday [The Singalong...]



Inside a boy
I found a universe
And in his eyes
Are a thousand stars
On a dark sky

We are clouds
We are whispers
Like fawns and shape-shifters
Our edges can never be found out
No, our edges keep moving further out

We are stars colliding
Now we crash
Like lightning into love
Love

In his arms
I'm unwinding
Under his kiss
I'm falling into love

We are stars colliding
Now we crash
Like lightning into love

We are stars colliding
Now we crash
Like lightning into love
Love





Thursday, June 3, 2010

Friday [The Winter Song...]


it's been raining for days
great fat heavy drops that seep through your clothes and flood the gutters in minutes.

i want to curl up with a book and spend days in bed.
bowls of tea.
thoughts of you.

sometimes life just doesn't make sense.
people do things you never expected.
say things you didn't think they would.
turn out to not be who they seemed...

sometimes, that is a wonderful thing.
sometimes, it can break your heart.

but that's okay, you know.
sometime's its necessary...


i see your breath hanging there, like snow clouds...